posted by Nk. at 8:17 AM

i have been meaning to blog but despite my suspected bipolarism, impending emotional crisis (the Do-It-Yourself kind), and long-playing quarter-life crisis -- all rich sources of something to write about, i couldn't.

but because i feel rather guilty about bragging to telling my friends about how they should visit my blog and then all they see is a picture of me and my dog hanging there for like forever already, i decided to quit talking to myself for the moment and reconnect with the rest of the planet for about 10 minutes to an hour. okay, two hours? no? the whole afternoon then?


so erap got his guilty verdict yesterday. i was never a fan of the man, and the day he became president was the day i seriously began to think about my future. or the lack of it. really.

the guilty verdict, for me, at least shows that something still works here in this part of the planet. though i am not a huge fan of the present administration, i haven't forgotten what happened in his. so it's a bit disconcerting to watch all the drama, showbizity (gretchen and ruffa have their say on this y'all!!), generally awesome crappiness of philippine politics as they unfolded yesterday.

i did feel a bit sad for the guy, after all, aren't our leaders a reflection of us as a people? but i'll be damned if he was let off the hook just because it's nakakaawa. and what's with this, erap saying that he has been acquitted by the Filipino people. huh? whatwhenwherehowwhyexactly?? cause i sure am not one of these people you're talking about. and a lot of "Filipinos" i know. so quit generalizing cause i'm not guilty of acquitting you and that's that. you can get your pardon (because you're old and because Filipinos are afflicted with collective amnesia a forgiving people) but you're still guilty to me.

i won't pretend to know a lot about the ins and outs of this case because i don't (best to read mlq3's blog and his comment-ators). what i do know is, i have been robbed and i continue being robbed. it's hard to trust, much more take public officials seriously because not only are a lot of them stupid, most of them act like we should kiss the ground they (and their family and friends and cohorts) walk on because well, they are "the government". true, i'm a bit disillusioned and sometimes, i'd rather watch horacio do his dramatic entrances and exits in CSI Miami than endure the news, but i continue to have hope for this country and as arbet twittered, think of the future (with at least, contained dread). heh.

anyway.


i be having man-problems (which are prolly imagined)! good thing helga and lauren provide precious words of wisdom. now i continue scaring the balls out of men as a past time.