posted by Nk. at 11:54 PM

i don't get it. how can a person miss someone he's never met, someone he has talked to sporadically in an accumulated time of not more than 30 minutes since they've first met (which was only just recently), and who he knows only through the stories of another person -- who, by the way, is also yet to meet this object of this weird affection in person?

i just don't get it.

i must admit, i'm not the easiest person to deal with, especially if you're a boy, and you think that well, you have ugh, "feelings" for me. not only can i be really dense -- i once asked a guy friend if a guy calls you in the wee hours of the morning "for no reason at all" or comes to your house "for no reason at all" or likes to stand close "for no reason at all" means something, and my guy friend looked like he wanted to hit me with the beer bottle he was drinking (from). so not only can i be really dense, if a guy makes the mistake of being all over the place with his so-called "affection" i tend to make things more difficult by being thoroughly amused, and largely unimpressed -- and showing it. i know, i know, it's kinda mean. some people might say, eh di ka naman kagandahan noh ba't ang suplada mo? but wtf. what can i do? feign kilig when he suggests to wake me up when i feel sleepy?

so this guy, he's been asking for my number, but, i refuse to give it because i'm not really comfortable giving out my number to just anyone. i don't think he's a psycho or anything -- he could be the country's future president for all it's worth, but the thing is, ayoko talaga ng kinukulit sa phone. hindi tlaga ako phonepal material. for some weird reason talking on the phone is not one of my favorite activities in the world. so i explain this to him as carefully as i could. but --

me: unang una, ayoko ng tinatawagan ako ng hindi emergency
me: ayoko ng tatawag para magpacute lang
guy: eh di magpapasagasa ako para may emergency
me: (WTF?!?) ROTFL!!!

so tell me, what the hell is wrong with ME?



(p.s.:
i've done some major stupid things for guys i liked -- none of them close to that pasagasa shit, but that's another post. so maybe i should do this meme? lols.)