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September 25, 2007
posted by Nk. at 7:27 PM

Because i've always wanted to know how screwed up unique i am, i decided to take this test which i found bloghopping to beth's blog.

Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||| 30%
Schizoid |||||||||||| 46%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||| 70%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Borderline |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 46%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 42%
Avoidant |||||||||||||| 54%
Dependent |||||| 22%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 42%
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Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

come any closer and i'll shoot...a very difficult question.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

i should consider running for public office then.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

what do you mean i'm oversensitive to criticism??!?!

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September 24, 2007
posted by Nk. at 11:01 AM

i was being lazy (as usual) and found this photo at chris' blog:

my cleavage okayz?

oh my lawrd. is that oscar dela hoya in fishnets and uhhm, pink panties? my guess that it prolly isn't (but then again i could be wrong lolz), but what people could do with a little skill in photoshop and the internet these days eh? and a little hate. okay, lots of hate. poor oskie. but at least those are pretty legs. and shaved too. lols.

what's the moral of the story? never get too drunk in the company of a girl who likes hooker attires. especially if you're prettier than her. kk?

in other news...

emir blogs about how men can help save the world with their ugh, testicles. how about that huh guys, new heart cells grown from somebody's balls?

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September 21, 2007
posted by Nk. at 8:52 AM

and with a laugh, The Miriam Defensor Santiago dismisses the idea of getting blown to pieces in the senate by a bomb, saying:

"...i don't care. we have a good life policy insurance here in the senate."

or something to that effect.

did anyone see that little interview the irrepressible senator gave in the news last night in relation to the supposed bomb threat to Senator Cayetano's office? or was i the only one who saw it, because

1. i'm such a fan, and
2. i like to pay attention to crazy things people say?

i'm voting for this woman. and she's not even running for anything. LOLs.

and speaking of something crazy that just might work, and i repeat, just MIGHT work, reuters reports:

Glamorous Bavarian wants law to allow 7-year itch

and we're not talking about a donut here. remember cecille's bright idea some posts back? looks like some people are actually serious about this! haha!

edit: i was able to catch an episode of miami ink for the first time last night and oh hell, kat von d is so good i almost teleported to miami to get a tattoo by her.

still on tv shows, also, i saw in the rachel ray show (i'm learning how to cook by watching tv heh) the cutest possible pug on the face of the planet, yogi the pug:

on a more serious note, i'm all for the anti-rabies campaign, but what on earth makes shooting stray dogs at a close range in front of other dogs right? keeeerist. does it give you guys a great feeling of accomplishment to see the dog writhing to his death? does that eradicate rabies? wtf is wrong with you people!?

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September 20, 2007
posted by Nk. at 5:52 PM

luli is mad and she points to jdv the younger's baldorama old dopery, saying,

“I don’t know if his old drug use affected his thinking,”

o di ba, antaray ng lola mo. too bad she can't have joey de venecia fired like that foreigner-loving immigration guy at the airport almost a year ago.

in more entertainment news:

Now, Estrada demands pardon.

yes, following the predictable plots in the philippines' popular soap operas, erap, who is fondly called by supporters as "president estrada" is now saying that he is now "willing to accept absolute or unconditional pardon without any conditions." so, is there such a thing as an unconditional pardon with conditions? or is that again, a practice unique to the philippines? if there is, explain to me please, so that i can now think of conditions i'll make in case i finally decide to overthrow the government, or steal several billions or so from the folks we all lovingly refer to as "the filipino people".

but, my quote of the day goes to JV ejercito:

“I never felt an ounce of sincerity from them since Day One, when they assumed power and overthrew President Estrada,”

“Why will we trust them?”

yes yes. and i start nominating names for sainthood to the vatican now?

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September 19, 2007
posted by Nk. at 3:33 PM

anyone want to put up the Philippines on e-bay? The bandwagontrader gave me this link after getting yet another disappointing day at the stock market (that ZTE deal sure is a bummer, but what isn't about the government these days?) today. and because i could only pretend to understand stuff that involve (a lot of) analyzing numbers and figures, i can only tell him that it could be worse -- like, tomorrow could be The Second Coming and we're all going to hell WITH them - the arroyos, de venecias, estradas, and 99% of all the people we hate.

and because talking about politics makes my nose and ears bleed, i now switch to talking to and about myself. today it's about my career. or what i can actually claim as something of that sort. bloghopping to helga's blog i found what could be the solution, the road map, the light house, the answer to my prayers -- on which direction to take in my life: thanks to a career matchmaking test in

so i answered 39 questions (thanks to lili for the how-tos) and voila, the website gave me the perfect career choices that best suit my retarded unique personality. i list down 20 of them here, my favorites are in bold:

1. Director of Photography
2. Director
3. Set Designer
4. Costume Designer
5. Psychologist
6. Sport Psychology Consultant
7. Rehabilitation Counselor
8. Lobbyist
9. Special Effects Technician
10. Actor
11. Desktop Publisher
12. Humanitarian Aid Worker
13. Cartoonist / Comic Illustrator
14. Animator
15. Mediator
16. Criminologist
17. Fashion Designer
18. Probation / Parole Officer
19. Sports Instructor
20. Curator

how amazing it is that i could have a career as an actor? piolo pascual is waiting? no? but good lawrrd, that guy seems to be turning gayer and gayer each time i see him on TV! talking in english with a weird accent, and wearing that atrocity (the white suit with the black thing hanging at the sides of his pants??) at the Be Bench finals last sunday. you are breaking my heart papa p, breaking it! *cries* but no matter, i still love you papa p, altho i think, tj trinidad is cuteness nowadays...

but. please tell me why the guy in the middle is wearing what appears to be dyesebel's bra??


okay. where were we?

ah yes. the career. see number 12 there? i like that a lot. now if only i didn't get annoyed with humans so often...

and numbers 1 and 2, perfect, since i love directing = ordering guiding people through their tasks. but director of photography is the love. number 5 -- psychology was my second choice of career in college. heh.

and what about the rehab counselor? do i smell alcohol? yes? and oh my, sport psychology consultant -- does this involve giving those muscled hotties a hug when they're down and all?

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September 16, 2007
posted by Nk. at 6:14 PM

now that the philosophical bastard has named me as ugh, one of the best pinoy blogs (don't laugh now! he did okay? stop laughing i can see the snort coming out your nose!) -- next to bloggers like chickenmafia and -- i now feel the need to be more socially-relevant and less about me-ish in my posts (ohnoes! what about my camwhoring??). this is a really big opportunity for me now to fulfill my dreams of making a difference in this world (next to having johhny depp's babies)! and to think that it was only yesterday when art and i were awed by the fiiine sport of soccer. i was considering getting into sports, dammnit.

so now that i feel the huge responsibility on my shoulders, i shall join the blog action day. (but seriously, this is a good project so join in people!)

but enough of my gloating.

last night mira and i entered the bar and saw dennis padilla entertaining the crowd. we promptly wondered what the guy was doing on a night out so far from manila, but forgot about it after consuming enough alcohol to talk about "wtf does being romantically attracted to you mean? is it a more colorful way of saying, i sincerely want to have sex with you?" but then mira says, go for it.

big help mirz, big help. more vodka?

seems that i suck at being socially relevant so far.

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September 13, 2007
posted by Nk. at 8:17 AM

i have been meaning to blog but despite my suspected bipolarism, impending emotional crisis (the Do-It-Yourself kind), and long-playing quarter-life crisis -- all rich sources of something to write about, i couldn't.

but because i feel rather guilty about bragging to telling my friends about how they should visit my blog and then all they see is a picture of me and my dog hanging there for like forever already, i decided to quit talking to myself for the moment and reconnect with the rest of the planet for about 10 minutes to an hour. okay, two hours? no? the whole afternoon then?

so erap got his guilty verdict yesterday. i was never a fan of the man, and the day he became president was the day i seriously began to think about my future. or the lack of it. really.

the guilty verdict, for me, at least shows that something still works here in this part of the planet. though i am not a huge fan of the present administration, i haven't forgotten what happened in his. so it's a bit disconcerting to watch all the drama, showbizity (gretchen and ruffa have their say on this y'all!!), generally awesome crappiness of philippine politics as they unfolded yesterday.

i did feel a bit sad for the guy, after all, aren't our leaders a reflection of us as a people? but i'll be damned if he was let off the hook just because it's nakakaawa. and what's with this, erap saying that he has been acquitted by the Filipino people. huh? whatwhenwherehowwhyexactly?? cause i sure am not one of these people you're talking about. and a lot of "Filipinos" i know. so quit generalizing cause i'm not guilty of acquitting you and that's that. you can get your pardon (because you're old and because Filipinos are afflicted with collective amnesia a forgiving people) but you're still guilty to me.

i won't pretend to know a lot about the ins and outs of this case because i don't (best to read mlq3's blog and his comment-ators). what i do know is, i have been robbed and i continue being robbed. it's hard to trust, much more take public officials seriously because not only are a lot of them stupid, most of them act like we should kiss the ground they (and their family and friends and cohorts) walk on because well, they are "the government". true, i'm a bit disillusioned and sometimes, i'd rather watch horacio do his dramatic entrances and exits in CSI Miami than endure the news, but i continue to have hope for this country and as arbet twittered, think of the future (with at least, contained dread). heh.


i be having man-problems (which are prolly imagined)! good thing helga and lauren provide precious words of wisdom. now i continue scaring the balls out of men as a past time.

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September 9, 2007
posted by Nk. at 1:30 AM

back from a night out. i've nothing coherent to say except ---

that i have a new puppy!

me and Pippa, yesterday.

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September 7, 2007
posted by Nk. at 11:54 PM

i don't get it. how can a person miss someone he's never met, someone he has talked to sporadically in an accumulated time of not more than 30 minutes since they've first met (which was only just recently), and who he knows only through the stories of another person -- who, by the way, is also yet to meet this object of this weird affection in person?

i just don't get it.

i must admit, i'm not the easiest person to deal with, especially if you're a boy, and you think that well, you have ugh, "feelings" for me. not only can i be really dense -- i once asked a guy friend if a guy calls you in the wee hours of the morning "for no reason at all" or comes to your house "for no reason at all" or likes to stand close "for no reason at all" means something, and my guy friend looked like he wanted to hit me with the beer bottle he was drinking (from). so not only can i be really dense, if a guy makes the mistake of being all over the place with his so-called "affection" i tend to make things more difficult by being thoroughly amused, and largely unimpressed -- and showing it. i know, i know, it's kinda mean. some people might say, eh di ka naman kagandahan noh ba't ang suplada mo? but wtf. what can i do? feign kilig when he suggests to wake me up when i feel sleepy?

so this guy, he's been asking for my number, but, i refuse to give it because i'm not really comfortable giving out my number to just anyone. i don't think he's a psycho or anything -- he could be the country's future president for all it's worth, but the thing is, ayoko talaga ng kinukulit sa phone. hindi tlaga ako phonepal material. for some weird reason talking on the phone is not one of my favorite activities in the world. so i explain this to him as carefully as i could. but --

me: unang una, ayoko ng tinatawagan ako ng hindi emergency
me: ayoko ng tatawag para magpacute lang
guy: eh di magpapasagasa ako para may emergency
me: (WTF?!?) ROTFL!!!

so tell me, what the hell is wrong with ME?

i've done some major stupid things for guys i liked -- none of them close to that pasagasa shit, but that's another post. so maybe i should do this meme? lols.)

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September 5, 2007
posted by Nk. at 10:02 PM

if it had not been for helga's lomolific post today i wouldn't have known what on earth lomo is. yes folks, i have been living under a rock that way. a huge one, the size of my parents' house.

and had i not read helga's post all the way i would have thought she was talking about some wild goat in austria. the fact that the goat or whatever it is -- is called a lama, and not a lomo - should not escape you either. sure validates how smart i am these days.

but. since i now know that lomo is not a goat but a camera used in some fine kind of artsy photography, and because i am yet to make that step into stealing some money from some unfortunate foreigner guy when he signs some papers in his deathbed -- before i can get an actual lomo, i tried lomoing using this and woohoo, here i am -- all 80/60-bp of me, still awake at 2:30 am and grinning the grin of a kid who has just discovered something FUN. did i tell you guys i'm into photography? fine fine, most pictures are OF ME but that still qualifies as a subject right? sheez, lomo is the shit! *fanmode here*

and because this is my blog, you will not be spared from MY first ever lomo-ed pic:

yes, that is an alcoholic beverage i am holding. and yes, i will be back for more lomo. and alcohol! yay!

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September 4, 2007
posted by Nk. at 2:05 AM

well, not unless you want to get us to model for a soap ad. or something. (like -- only jell-o touches our skin, who touchez yours?) hahaha.

morena, mestiza and chinita
(pasmado hands kaya nagalaw haha)

went for coffee with sharlotte and venus this afternoon. this was one of the rare times i get to spend time with my old friends, so despite the backlogs = work i took home from the office waiting for me to finish at home i went. venus was in town for a short vaca so, since it was just me and lotte (who already got family so we really don't see each other that much) we took the opportunity to catch up on things. and catch up we did (you know how it is when girls get together haha). i didn't realize how much i missed my girl-friends until now!

the three of us became friends in college. sharlotte ended up with my high school crush (haha!) and well, venus, she's in manila happy with her job and lovelife. and i, will prolly (hopefully, yes ven?) come to share her place in case The Big Office Transfer To Manila goes as planned. i'm not really that into the idea of working in manila (again) -- the thought of having to deal with traffic, the heavy pollution (very bad news for my asthma) and the chaos uniquely manila is already making me tired. but i don't know. my friends are all there, so. i'll think about it.

and because i bragged told them about this blog i have to have a picture of us three there. so there.

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September 1, 2007
posted by Nk. at 8:52 AM

what, i tweak my blog and ignore it? great.

just too busy these days to even think. and comb my hair. and is everyone with me in saying that the internet connection sucks big time lately? i think of my team's backlog and i feel like sharon cuneta singing pasan ko ang daigdig. wait. i think i like cherie gil's character better. but she wasn't in that movie was she?


picture muna.

me. 5 days ago.

I was feelin’ like a creep
As I watched you asleep
Face down in the grass,
in the park, in the middle
of a hot afternoon
Your top was untied
And I thought how nice
It’d be to follow the sweat down your spine
~ Dreamgirl, Dave Matthews Band

and it's september already. september!

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