posted by Nk. at 9:48 PM

Great.


Just when I've finally succumbed to return to The Club of People Who Will Not Live Beyond 70, the cosmic forces of the universe connive to thwart my intentions and puts a no smoking sign where I was about to puff The First Stick After Four Years of Being My Mother's Good Daughter.

See my mother used to work in the Department of Health. When I was in high school we would have boxes and boxes of condom in our house -- meant for distribution to the faithful folks in the barangays. My mother is such a firm believer in family planning that she once suggested that I bring a box of condoms and distribute it to boys in my High School -- my very Catholic high school which was run by Societas Verbi Divini priests (at that time, by a particularly handsome young priest who my girl friends and I enjoyed watching play lawn tennis every afternoon). course I didn't bring those colorful condoms to school (and what, upset Father Crush? no wei!)

My point is, well...nothing really. I just wanted to prattle about a random happier time in my life (yup, giggling with my friends about Father Crush qualifies as such), because today wasn't a very good day for me.

Anyway.


I wonder if God will still listen to me pray even if I don't go to church anymore?

In case He/She is listening/reading.

Dear God,

May I ask please if Your Almightyness has a plan for me? And if there is, could Your Graciousness please bonk me in the head with it so I can see it? Or does Your Everlastingness prefer that I roll my way, which, based on my limited capability to calculate the future, means basically heading to a place more popularly known as nowhere? I do hope that I have not offended You in any way, and I do trust that You will answer me in Your most perfect time and way. Thank You for taking the time off Your very busy schedule for me. And thank you for coffee. And friends who remember. And honesty. And pretty things like this:




Amen.



P.S.

If The Lord Most Powerful will answer me any time soon, may I please request that You do so not in a loud, booming voice? I'm afraid that I might have a nervous breakdown, and all would be lost.