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June 20, 2008

posted by Nk. at 8:34 PM

So I went home riding a unicorn last night.

Yup, I was so exhausted from work I was high. It wasn't so much about the physical exhaustion, it was more like the feeling of my brain just flickering on and off -- you know, like that dysfunctional light in your toilet sometimes? On my way home I was almost certain that I would just plop down unconscious in the street but thanks to the universe who looks like it still could be rooting for my puny existence, I managed to reach home without unnecessarily embarrassing myself in public.

And did I mention I was starving?

When I got home I gobbled the two asado siopaos I bought on the way, and ate the dinner Art prepared. Dinner, consisting of rice and ulam. Yes folks, I ate like a pig last night. A sleeping pig, that is, because I caught myself dozing off to neverland and seeing visions of strobe lights, double ks, red shoes, crinkling eyes, and dancing cows. While chewing.

I think I might have to get myself a break before the break gets me first.

Labels: countdown to a breakdown, work

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December 12, 2007

learning to be still

posted by Nk. at 8:56 AM

So I don't have sleep. I spent my sleepy time tossing and turning in bed I swear I lost some fat on my face, and now have a sculptured body. In between the tossing and the turning I made the decision to stay here over transferring to Manila, even if it meant giving up the possibility of having a paycheck double of what I'm getting now. Okay, I know I have had (and still have) issues with how my current work is progressing, and I do have a nasty feeling this could be one of the stupidest decisions I have made yet (I'm sure I won't be running out of these things anyway) AND I do regret that I prolly won't be able to study Film next year like I planned (but who knows?) -- but at this point in my life I just know that if ever I'm going to have "change" it better be something that I really want you know? Kind of like getting into a relationship because you want to, not because you need to? Basta, ganun. Besides, this is my nth job in the course of seven years and I'm pretty much sick of stopping and starting all over again.

I'm happy with my decision though. FOR NOW.

Am I really screwed this time?

Well at least myheritage.com says I look like Beyonce AND Jessica Alba. I shake my booty at the universe please.

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

And now for the magic-o!

UPDATE: This is what I'll look like if I decide to get some stuff done (with Miss Alba as my inspiration)